I'm Tripping

I know, I know, life's a journey. Sometimes you think you know where you're going and you realize that is NOT your journey. This is NOT the trip you had planned. If you've read even one of my blogs, you know that I am having a hard time accepting that life with my little guy isn't going how I assumed it would.  I don't want anyone to think that I'm not moving forward,  but my heart is stuck in a tough place.

How do I know I'm in the thoughts and prayers of many? I feel it and I can see it in Asher everyday. Y'all also let me know. I received an unexpected message from Knox's kindergarten teacher. When Knox was in her class, the class wrote a book about a ladybug. This ladybug was Mrs. Laura Brantley's niece, Layla. Layla was born with medical issues. She was also Autistic. Layla passed away a few years ago, but she is definitely still on the minds of many people. Laura sent me a poem. She said that it helped her sister so much when she was going through her journey with her daughter.
This is what she sent me:

This may be one of the most impactful gestures that I've experienced since Asher's diagnosis. I sent it to Randy. His reply was equally important. He wrote, "Omg that's so good and so true.  It's the only logical way of looking at our situation.  Makes me tear up.  I'm saving this.  We've been to Italy 3 times.  Now we have our special Holland too."

I feel like I'm in mid-flight though. I still think we're going to Italy. This was a different perspective for me to consider. Holland is beautiful. I'm going to land in Holland one of these days. This put me a step closer. 

*One more thing* As if this story couldn't  get any more special- Guess what Layla's sister was named?? Yep, Holland.